“so this is it”

“out there in the real world, you’re dying. and i might be too. we gotta find a way to break this loop.”
“i don’t belong.”
but, you know, there are always spaces where you do.

omg, well i could try! i mean, since Dean and Castiel’s romantic potential is still largely subtextual in its on screen exploration, reading their dynamic up to this point as purely platonic is of course a perfectly legitimate and understandable interpretation, even if one i personally don’t subscribe to. but yeah for someone to outright dismiss any romance as absolutely impossible by any valid reading is a little myopic of them??

ahh it’s certainly not a bother!! i’ve actually seen quite a few people talking about it, i think most opinions you’ll read will vary from an idea that Dean only rejected Ellie out of focus on the job, which is certainly true i think in part (if not a bit simplistic of a full explanation for a moment that was so pointedly captured), to an explanation more firmly rooted in comparing it to Dean’s interaction with Aaron last episode. this post probably speaks the most completely to my own feelings about it, but if you’re interested in a longer exploration, especially in relation to Castiel, you might enjoy reading this as well!

well i mean bisexuality also includes attraction to women, so i wouldn’t exactly call that a reason in and of itself Dean might have been compelled to turn Ellie’s proposition down when in another season he might have been quick to accept, but certainly i think that moment, more than anything, was meant to highlight an emotional and psychological state within Dean, otherwise it doesn’t really have a purpose except to prop up Ellie’s subtle hint at the end of it that it’s a “one night offer”, but there are other ways her deal could have been hinted at without highlighting Dean’s reaction in that fashion, so i don’t think that’s a very strong excuse either. truth be told though i don’t think there is one comprehensive explanation! i think it was a really poignant moment that revealed vulnerability in Dean, but i think that vulnerability might come from a multiplicity of places, one of which certainly as indicated by Dean’s speech to Sam is that Dean doesn’t think want is something he should be allowed to have, something that’s even avaibable to grasp anymore for him. it’s not that he doesn’t want, and at this point it’s not even just about a night with Ellie, it’s that he can’t
(and ty!! i hope you had a lovely one too <3)